Wednesday, August 10, 2022

Try, try, try

In yesterday's post, "Many sparrows, again, and various other sync links," I noted how Debbie's comment about the etymology and meanings of knock made me think of the expression "Don't knock it till you've tried it," and how a version of "(Don't Fear) The Reaper" I had recently listened to had included instrumentals taken from the P!nk song "Try," featuring the refrain, "You've gotta get up and try, try, try."

That post also dealt in passing with Jesus' childhood (the legend of his bringing clay sparrows to life). I've also been working on a post (not very long, but constantly delayed by sync interruptions) about forgiveness and how Heaven will be populated by former sinners. These two thoughts made me ask the question of whether Jesus had always been "perfect," even as a child, and whether my reluctance even to ask such a question was a sign that on some level I was uncomfortable with the idea that anyone could ever become divine who had not always been so.

This, in turn, made me think of a Mormon children's song I had learned about Jesus as a child, which contained the lines, "He never got vexed if the game went wrong / and he always spoke the truth." The fanciful idea of those lines being chosen as someone's epitaph (perhaps that of J. W. Dunne, whose otherworldly visitants described life as a "game") crossed my mind, which served to keep the song in my mind long enough to remember that the chorus is:

So, little children
Let’s you and I
Try to be like him
Try, try, try

That triple-try is a clear sync with the P!nk song. Then I remembered that on July 31 I had had a sync involving a T-shirt that said "TRY YOUR BEST," with different parts of that text being successively covered and revealed to form different messages. At the end of the post about that, "U R best," I had quoted the First Epistle of Peter: "Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you" (4:12). This message, that a "fiery trial" is only to be expected, and perhaps inevitable, syncs with the P!nk song as well: "Where there is desire, there is gonna be a flame / Where there is a flame, someone's bound to get burned" -- in other words, don't think it strange if you "get burned," as though some strange thing happened to you. Keep it in perspective: "Just because it burns doesn't mean you're gonna die."

Another song that came to mind in this context was "Can't Run But" by Paul Simon. It doesn't actually use the word try, but the idea of trying one's best despite limitations is implied in the refrain:

I can't run but
I can walk much faster than this
Can't run but
I can't run but
I can walk much faster than this
Can't run but

Then I noticed the relevance of this verse:

I had a dream about us
In the bottles and the bones of the night
I felt a pain in my shoulder blade
Like a pencil point? A love bite?
A couple was rubbing against us
Rubbing and doing that new dance
The man was wearing a jacket and jeans
The woman was laughing in advance

This syncs with "My dream on the eve of September 11, 2001" -- a long-forgotten dream that was suddenly brought back to my attention last night by inexplicable means.

There was a sharp report, and I felt the bullet bite into my back, just to the left of my spine. . . . The bullet entered my heart, and a dark, warm, paralyzing feeling swept over me. I felt myself lose consciousness, lose identity, and everything was black and silent and timeless. The last thing I heard before I disappeared was my friends' laughter.

The bullet entered my heart through my back, just to the left of my spine -- pretty anatomically close to "a pain in my shoulder blade" -- and of course "pencil point" means lead, which means a bullet. And after the bullet, laughter.

Today I checked the Babylon Bee after several days of not doing so, and one of the stories was "Kim Kardashian Breaks Up With Pete Davidson After She Finally Gets Around To Watching SNL." The photo showed Davidson wearing a jacket and T-shirt; it didn't show his legwear, but the casual nature of his get-up makes jeans a strong possibility. This passage from the article syncs with "The woman was laughing in advance."

"Of course, everyone assumes I dated him because he's so funny," said a rueful Ms. Kardashian. "What it takes everyone a while to realize is that Pete has just perfected the smile and half-giggle of someone who just cracked a hysterical inside joke. You end up laughing because you want to be in on the joke, or think you must have missed something, and your brain somehow starts to believe Pete is actually hilarious. But if you just listen to the words coming out of his mouth, nothing remotely funny ever happens."

Going back the idea of pencil-as-bullet, it made me think of the They Might Be Giants song "Pencil Rain," in which that is used as an extended metaphor. The song begins: "The possible dream / Finale of seem" -- two lines alluding respectively to Man of La Mancha and a Wallace Stevens poem.

Relevant to my recent FBI dream, the news is all about the totally normal FBI raid on Donald Trump's private residence, the purpose of which was to "find" that he had misappropriated classified documents, making it illegal for him to run for president again and putting an end to "the possible dream" that the God-Emperor will rise again. How did that Wallace Stevens poem go?

Let be be finale of seem.
The only emperor is the emperor of ice-cream.

The only emperor is the emperor of ice-cream. How is a line from a 1954 poem so precisely apropos to the current political situation in the U.S.?

Related to the classified-document allegations is the bizarre claim that Trump flushed so many torn-up documents down the toilet that the toilet clogged, allowing  NYT White House correspondent Maggie Haberman to photograph them. Trump's response to this?

He declared the story 'categorically untrue and simply made up by a reporter in order to get publicity for a mostly fictitious book.'

He also referred to Haberman as 'Maggot' as a play on her name Maggie.

The Poetry Foundation website says that "The only emperor is the emperor of ice-cream" is an allusion to Hamlet.

Your worm is your only emperor for diet: we fat all creatures else to fat us, and we fat ourselves for maggots.


Ben Pratt said...

And of course the metal (industrialized? Ahrimanic?) worm fats itself for Mr. Owl/Michael/Adam, perhaps especially for the day he returns to take account of his descendants' stewardships.

I drove from Arizona to Utah and back this weekend. On our way back we diverted from our usual route for one stretch to possibly visit someone but returned back to the normal after the person responded that a visit was impossible. While on those roads I hadn't taken for many years, I noticed a distinctly shaped mountain peak I wanted to look up later, so I noted the next mile marker (116) and the angle between the road direction at that point and the bearing time the mountain. (2 degrees to the right).

Today as I looked up which section of the Doctrine and Covenants spoke of Adam returning to Adam-ondi-Ahman, I was startled to find that it is section 116.

Wm Jas Tychonievich said...

Solid links, Ben.

Ra1119bee said...

Ben Pratt,

116 is also KO or, reading right to left , the word OK.
Also a KO is a Knock Out.

Research the OK hand sign, which has been seared into our collective consciousness
of late. Especially through Donald Trump and his constant babble of: OK? OK?

Ra1119bee said...


I just posted this comment to Ben in response to his comment about the number 116.

Here is what I wrote:

116 is also KO or, reading right to left , the word OK.
Also a KO is a Knock Out.

There's that Knock Word again ! and interestingly while I was writing my comment to Ben Pratt, the song by Guns N Roses
popped into my head (which I haven't heard that song for many many years)

I found it interesting that there is a Rose connection as I think I've shared my perspective about me (my Soul) having a Rosicrucian/Rudolph Steiner connection, which I just had a very interesting Rosy dream the other night.

Anywho, I also thought of your recent posts and dreams about bullets and being shot, as the lyrics of Knockin' on Heavens Door is this;

Mama, put my guns in the ground
I can't shoot them anymore
That cold black cloud is coming down
feels like I'm knockin' on heavens door.

Also check out the chorus of the song and the Law of the Three.

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door
Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

this verse

ben said...


What are these BRs/bears you sometimes mention?

Ra1119bee said...


I believe that the BRs (which is the word BEAR omitting the vowels) are also
known The One Eye on the detached capstone of the pyramid,
and are also known as the Octagon.

I believe the BR's are at the Helm ON THIS DUALITY PLANET/dimension.
I believe the BR's are the negative polarity who have always been here On THIS dimension
and will always be here.
On this planet for every Positive there is a Negative Polarity.

I believe that perhaps this dimension Earth is the only planet where manifestation can take place, which the BR's worship this planet because they can and do manipulate all Power Sources in THIS Dimension by manipulating TIME/Saturn/ Chronos, and in turn manipulating us.

I think the BR's are probably the Nephilim of the Bible.
I think their 'number' is 13.
I think the BR's are the one percent OF the one percent.
The BR's work for no one. They worship Power.
We do not know their names.

I think that at the tip top of the pyramid and beneath the detached capstone
are the 1 percent aka the 11's who perhaps are the Watchers in the Bible.
I think the 11's are Bloodline and work for the BR's and the BR's agenda.
The 11's too worship power but also wealth.

Below the 11's are the Gatekeepers who may or may not be bloodline.
The Gatekeepers work for the 11's.The Gatekeepers worship the EGO legacy/fame and money.
The Gatekeepers only have the power that the 11's give them.
Although intertwined, money and power are not the same thing.

The BR's , 11's and Gatekeepers all work for the same agenda, and therefore
I refer to all of them as ' our Opponents', although they are not all the same.

I think that the BRs do NOT have a Soul which is why our Soul is their Final Frontier
via Transhumanism via Artificial Intelligence.

A I is NOT NEW and was mastered before in Atlantis.

I believe our Soul is our most Power Resource because, I believe, our Soul is connected to God the Divine. I believe God transcends All including this dimension.

I also believe our Soul transcends this Illusion every night in our REM sleep, which our Soul is the domain of creativity and intuition and ' knows' the Past (including Past Lives... Present and Future)
It's no wonder, at least to me, why our Soul is our Opponents final frontier because our
Soul is a Power Source connected to God.

I believe we ( HUmanity) are on the precipice of a Spiritual War via the Shifting of Ages, from the Industrial Age to the Silicon Age, aka the Fourth Industrial Revolution, a Technocracy, and metaphysically from the Age of Pisces to the Age of Aquarius.
Our Opponents have called this time The Great Reset.

William wrote this in this post; perhaps that of J. W. Dunne, whose otherworldly visitants described life as a "game")

I personally agree with Dunne. I call this 'game' an Illusion.

I believe we (humanity) have been in this same place and time before (Good vs Evil)
and that at that time God intervened and brought Hell with High Water.
(The Deluge of Atlantis).
I believe that the Atlanteans had mastered Transhumanism before the deluge.

All IMHO, of course ;-)

ben said...

@Debbie, thanks for taking the time to lay all that out, but I was really wondering about the name itself "BR" or "bear". Where does that come from?

WanderingGondola said...

Oddly enough I did think of "U R best" on Monday. After the past week, those "try"s are encouraging, along with this song: Wednesday night in particular saw me in a bad headspace, partly due to some syncs.

Most of the recent mention of fire and burning could apply to me in various ways. Just don't include spontaneous combustion in that, hahah!

4:12. Hm. Combine the 1 and 2, change the order, and you have 34. I've said that number has become important to me. I decided to look up that chapter of 1 Peter, and most of it is rather relevant.

The refrain of "Can't Run But" calls back to "Running Up That Hill" (, it being about going beyond one's limits with the help of God. I won't be surprised if I sync off it again.

I followed the link to the Wallace Stevens poem. The annotation for "Let be be finale of seem" makes it apt indeed. I sense the world will see many illusions fall away in future, and not just whatever's going on with the Resident. That man's head must be a mess.

Last off, I spotted an actual worm while waiting for my bus this morning. It inched across the damp pavement (had rained overnight here), presumably in hope of finding the safety of the earth. I'll never know its fate, though there aren't any actual owls in my area.

Wm Jas Tychonievich said...


Maybe I'm a little slow on the uptake, but why does 116 mean KO?

Ra1119bee said...


I don't think I quite understand.
Omiting the vowels (E A ) of the name Bear is BR.
The Bears steal the Honey.

Perhaps this description from the etymology on line website may help ( read below )
Do note this from this explanation: "raging warrior of ***superhuman**** strength.

and this : Thorkelin, in the essay on the Berserkir, appended to his edition of the Kristni Saga, tells that an old name of the Berserk frenzy was hamremmi, i.e., **** strength acquired from another strange body****** because it was anciently believed that the persons who were liable to this frenzy were ****mysteriously***** endowed, during its accesses, with a *****strange body of unearthly strength*******

The asterisks were added by me to highlight my perspective.

Does this information sound familiar to what I wrote and believe??

Here's the copy and paste
berserk (adj.)
1844, from berserk (n.) "Norse warrior" (by 1835), an alternative form of berserker, a word which was introduced (as berserkar) by Sir Walter Scott in "The Pirate" (1822), from Old Norse berserkr (n.) "raging warrior of superhuman strength." It is probably from *ber- "bear" + serkr "shirt," thus literally "a warrior clothed in bearskin" (see bear (n.) + sark). Thus not, as Scott evidently believed, from Old Norse berr "bare, naked" and meaning "warrior who fights without armor."

Thorkelin, in the essay on the Berserkir, appended to his edition of the Kristni Saga, tells that an old name of the Berserk frenzy was hamremmi, i.e., strength acquired from another strange body, because it was anciently believed that the persons who were liable to this frenzy were mysteriously endowed, during its accesses, with a strange body of unearthly strength. If, however, the Berserk was called on by his own name, he lost his mysterious form, and his ordinary strength alone remained. [Notes and Queries, Dec. 28, 1850]

Perhaps later writers mistook the -r for an agent-noun suffix. The picture is further complicated because it has the form of the Old Norse plural, and English berserker sometimes is plural. The adjectival use probably grew from such phrases as berserk frenzy, or as a title (Arngrim the Berserk).

Ra1119bee said...


Because K in numerology is 11
and O is 15.
15 is reduced to the single digit 6.

So: 116

Master numbers ( 11, 22,33 etc ) are not reduced to a single digit.

KO is a boxing term meaning Knock Out.

Ra1119bee said...


I meant to write that K is the 11th letter in the alphabet
and the letter O is the Fifteenth letter in the alphabet.

ben said...

@Debbie I see now, you call them bears because they steal the honey but why shorten that to BR?

And unrelatedly:

"Master numbers ( 11, 22,33 etc ) are not reduced to a single digit."

Interesting you should say this because 132 (the number earlier identified with Michael) is divisible by 11, 22, 33, 44, and 66.

Ra1119bee said...


I just wanted to add this one more thought.

From the copy and paste I just posted of the Etymology of the word Berserk
is this :
from Old Norse berr "bare, naked" and meaning ****"warrior who fights without armor."***

My perspective of the BR's as those who answer or work for no one, I think fits
the description of fighting without armor appropriate as: who needs armor
if they have no one to fight?

The Bears still the Honey.

Wm Jas Tychonievich said...

Pencil "lead" is actually graphite -- and in the context of the "Mr. Graff from the FBI" dream, "Graffites" are Feds. Mr. Graff was an excellent shot, but there was one thing he could never hit: clay birds into which Jesus had breathed life.

"Don't fear the Reaper / We'll be able to fly."

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